It didnt matter that the sky above us was exploding into a myriad of colors. I could not hear anything but his laugh, I could not see anything but his smile. The beautiful lights were nothing like the twinkle in his eyes. Everything was magical and mesmerizing, and like us, over too soon.
For a while now, I have always thought of getting old as some horrific monster threatening to strangle the life out of me. Although people around me don’t really say it, I’ve felt this incredible pressure to fit into the same social construct that generations of women before me have traditionally fit into with ease: that of a wife and a mother. Every year, I give myself a self-imposed deadline to accomplish this feat.
But over the years, I can honestly say that not only do I no longer give a single fuck about anyone’s social constructs, I’ve cared less and less about his and her towels, bridal gowns, or the expiration date of my ovaries.
What I do care about is loving well and being loved, waking up to a job that excites and fulfills me, having enough down time to do the things that are important to me, and surrounding myself with enough people, music, art, and poetry to feed my soul.
I’ve decided that there is no room in my life for abstract concepts, so I’ve learned to let them go.
𝐻𝑒𝓇𝑒’𝓈 𝓉𝑜 𝒶𝓃𝑜𝓉𝒽𝑒𝓇 𝒸𝒶𝓃𝒹𝓁𝑒 𝑜𝓃 𝓂𝓎 𝒸𝒶𝓀𝑒 🍻 𝒽𝒶𝓅𝓅𝓎 𝒷𝒾𝓇𝓉𝒽𝒹𝒶𝓎 𝓉𝑜 𝓂𝑒!
If there’s one thing I hate about moving, its signing up to home services anew. When I went to PLDT Urdaneta, I was informed that I can request for a move/transfer of my internet service seamlessly. All I had to do was make a request in PLDT La Trinidad.
So I first went there on August 18, filled up the form and sketched my area for surveying. I was informed that it was going to take at least a month to get surveyed. I know! La Trinidad is such a big area and I’m surprised that they do not have enough manpower. There was only 1 customer service and only 1 cashier in their small office. I was told that they were going to call me once everything was ready.
Fast forward to today, still no internet! I have been very patient waiting for their call. I was using the prepaid LTE router, which is pretty good, if not for the data cap which I abhor. So I went to PLDT La Trinidad to follow up, arrived quarter to 1 pm, thinking I can get ahead of the line while the customer service was on lunch break.
It’s 3:20 pm and the customer service was still on break! Lol. I mean seriously! And then they close at 5:30pm. What can you accomplish at that amount of time? People were getting furious and one of the women waiting was already creating a commotion.
I am baffled at how crappy the service is. I mean i f you know that people are waiting for you, will you really take your sweet time and let them wait for more than 2 hours? What company tolerates lunch breaks for more than 2 hours?
The terrible thing is, PLDT has a monopoly of the internet service. Globe unfortunately does not have service in my area. I do hope the internet service with BENECO pushes through. We need a break from PLDT’s incompetent customer service.
So after using the Oppo F7 for a few months, I’ve decided to go back to using an iPhone. And since I just moved, with my internet provider moving sluggishly slow in moving my service, I don’t have internet yet #3rdworldprobs. I know, I know! The lady at PLDT told me that it would take a month just for my area to get surveyed sigh.
Thankful that my area has good LTE signal, I use my phone’s mobile internet as a spot so that I can still fulfill my freelancing tasks.
However, upon switching back to iPhone, I was surprised at how much data it eats up! When I was still using my android + laptop + job-related surfing and the usual social media trolling, I consume around 1 gig in 3 days. As soon as I went online using my iPhone, it hasn’t even been 15 mins yet, and I already got an alert that my 1 gig subscription has been consumed! Unbelievable!
After scouring the internet for solutions, I found out that just turning off the background app refresh does the trick. Whew.
I still hate you iPhone.
It was a tiring day but upon passing by this place on my way home, I must say, I feel a bit better.
I am not new to this place, I studied here, got married, worked, studied again, until my grandmother got sick and I had to move to the plains to take care of her. With the house being so old, after the recent typhoon, there was a short circuit and something exploded. I was terrified. Majority of the house was made of wood, I was scared the house might be on fire while I’m sleeping.
So I’ve moved back. This is how it looks at night ❤
Note: credit to image owner, the photo is not mine
So happy to let everyone know that I am in the process of writing my poetry book.
I didn’t think it was this stressful to go through old creations and deciding which to add, as well as coming up with new ones exclusively for the book. It’s like choosing which stars shine the best. All my poems are my baby and I am very protective of them.
But I am so happy too that I would finally be able to share it with the world.
I’ll keep you posted!
It should not take a lot of eye liner and mascara to convince you that you’re pretty.
Surround yourself with people who see your beauty inside and out.
So I was at Shopee searching for anti-theft bags, and this was what I saw.
I’m not kidding! Yup! That’s a fanny pack lol.
What is happening to the world?
I am a nurse by profession. if you live in the Philippines like me, I am one of the hundreds of thousands of nurses not working as a nurse. You’d ask, if you graduated as a nurse, and passed the board exam, then why are you jobless? Well I’ve been asking that myself for a while now.
Don’t get me wrong, there is no shortage of hospitals in the Philippines, the shortage is in the jobs. And what’s so ironic is to get a decent nursing job in the Philippines, you have to sign in as a volunteer first, most frequently at least a year, yes a year of free work for the hospital! And then they would think of considering you.
And to make things worse, hospitals make money out of it! It’s illegal actually. But there are a lot of hospitals who accept “volunteers” for a “fee” but then after a year or more, they leave with an employee certificate indicating that you have worked there as a regular employee. I guess that’s how the world works.
Which brings me to freelancing. It started as a part time job which I took care of my sick grandmother. After she died, I was depressed for a while. I stayed mostly at home, didn’t want to go out to the world. But since I needed money for sustenance, of course, I went full time in to freelancing. I signed up at Upwork.com and had different jobs. I was even offered very weird jobs. There was this guy who wanted me to watch him get naked on cam, with the guy trying to convince me that it was a “psychology project” and that I needed to help him overcome his “shyness”. I know, right?
Freelancing opened a world I never thought I would dabble in to. I learned a lot about computers and websites and the online world. Now I can create my own website from scratch. I also work with a guy who trades stocks, but I can never seem to get the hang of all the terminology. It would be really cool if I learned all that, right? I dunno, it seems so hard to comprehend with no financial background from my end.
Another client promised me a contract with flexible hours, so I decided I would be able to volunteer at hospitals during the day so I can earn that work experience as a nurse, and then freelance in the evening. Sadly, that client bailed out on me, and I was left with nothing. This is one of the disadvantages of freelancing, no job security.
Right now, I am working as support for an online shopping website. It’s not my dream job, but the work is ok, the hours are fine, and most of all, it doesn’t stress me. It will do, for now.
So when people ask me what I do and I tell them that I work from home, they give me that “oh-you’re-just-at-home” look. Bitch I earn more than you 😛